The reason why I choose to be anonymous is not because I’m embarrassed to have mental disorders. In fact, I tell everyone about my mental disorders all the time. It’s just easier when they expect me to behave like a chupacabra but get pleasantly surprised when they find out that I’m actually a decent human being.
The reason for my anonymity is that I was harassed by someone I used to trust. This person is a very close relative of mine.
1. They threatened to lock me up in a mental institution.
2. Along with other relatives, they told me that I need an exorcism.
3. They harassed me via social media, emails and fraudulent complaints to the police (local and international).
If you have ever been threatened, harassed or bullied, please know that you can get through it.
All I needed to do was stop listening to those people. I wasn’t crazy, I wasn’t stupid. I was just misunderstood.
All I needed was one person to understand me and accept me. Once I had the support of that one person, I was able to fight countless people by myself. I had the strength to fight them all along, I just needed someone to let me know that I should believe in myself.
Whoever you are, wherever you are. If you need the strength to fight, to keep going or just to stay alive. Please know that you have the strength in you. If you keep true to yourself, if you remain honest, I promise you will find acceptance.
Dear 11 year old me, right now you’re sitting on the floor in the corner of your room. You’ve been wearing these worn out clothes for a week. You’ve been listening to loud angry music on your headphones. You’ve been pretending, holding back tears and longing for affection. I’m sorry I didn’t believe you. I’m sorry I didn’t believe in you. I believe now and everything is so much better.